Late Nights, and Early Mornings

Hi everyone,

I apologize for the late post, but it seems to be my life lately. I'm working hard, writing. But as a mommy, the only time I can ever seem to find for myself is between nine thirty, and about two in the morning.

Right now I have to use it. It's my only time to write. But staying up until two in the morning every single night, only to have to get up at six or seven to start my day is taking its toll. Writing is hard. It's exhausting. Unfortunately being mommy is also hard, it is also exhausting. Throw in the role of wife, friend, sister, daughter, as well as mommy to the fuzzy things, it seems like my entire day is filled with an endless string of "what I have to do."

I keep wondering when I will reach a time when "what I want to do" will fit back in.

I'll admit it.

I want to sleep.

I want to sleep in.

I want to take a nap.

I want to feel I can rest, and everything around me won't crumble to pieces while I'm gone. In my mind I know it won't, theoretically. But I struggle with this intense need. I feel like everyone NEEDS me all the time. But if I go away for a conference, or a chapter meeting, they get along fine.

So why is it when I'm home, I NEED to do so much?

I don't know. I'm tired and I'm rambling.

I NEED to get this blog post done.

I got some great pictures of the spicebush swallowtails and the monarch caterpillars in their chrysalises. I'll post them next week. Hopefully I won't be as stretched for time. Hopefully I'll be able to sneak in that nap I really need.

Hopefully all of you will too.

Rest up this weekend. Have a great national day off.

I think we all need it.

Happy reading, everyone!

Jess